“What Am I In The Eyes Of Most People–a Nonentity, An Eccentric?” | Prompt #15

One of the saddest truths of being an artist is you can never know how creative and great you are in your own lifetime. It’s the people around us who make us great about our art. But are all the people good enough for your journey?

One thing I’ve learnt over the years is no matter whatever you do, people are going to criticize you. If you’re going great in life, they’ll be jealous of your success, if you’re not doing anything in life, they’ll call you good for nothing. If you have a lot of money, they’ll call you arrogant, if you don’t have enough money, they’ll call you a poor guy coated with some sympathy. If you’ve built a good physique, they’ll think you take steroids, if you’re think, they’ll make fun of you so forth and so on.

You see there’s no end where you can satisfy everyone. You may spend your entire life trying to please people around you, but you’ll still be left with thousands more to justify.

But wait for a second, do you actually need to do that? Well, this is what I had asked back in 2016 when I used to get mental threat from people who used to call my work as shit. Yes, that’s what’s I’ve been growing with my writing.

After all, they’ve had never seen someone as bold as me who, at the age of 18-19 years old, started writing and exploring the deeper side of sex, and art of erotica.

There used to be a lot of haters of my work, who’d read not to appreciate but to find out the flaws and tell it on the open forum. Okay, I was always open for the discussion, but it was full of hatred.

I was devastated by myself at one point. There used to be good people too who’d support my work, and then the dominant ones would even through me out of their groups too.

I realized, I need to walk on my own path, nobody is going to give me hands, I need to make my way.

And that was the day, I never looked back. Even after being called as a “Soft porn writer” I kept on writing.

And it made me so confident, that even in my professional life, during my interview with an AVP of the organization, I was extremely confident when I was asked,

“So I heard that you write?”
“Yes, Sir.”
“Hmm. But that’s not usual. I mean, you write something on different topics.”
“Sex. I write about sex.”
Now he was a bit embarrassed while smiling.
I let him smile, and cleared my sentence,
“When people are not afraid of doing it, then why should I afraid of writing about it?”
“Impressive. Let me know too, send me a link too, I’ll give it a try. “
“You can Google- SumitOfficial and you’ll find on the top”

*Pin drop silence followed*

This is just one of the instances, there are so many more I can write but the crux out of it will come at one point- Do whatever the fuck you want to do and let the world bark behind you. They’re behind you for a reason. Always remember that.

I’m glad that today’s Prompt number 15, gave me the opportunity to express my views about doing something differently and confidently. And the credit goes to the real lovers of my work. I’ll always owe you for this.


You think it is easy
To sit on the fence,
I’ve had it enough listening to shits
And ended up becoming eccentric.
I used to cater a lot of people
Who didn’t deserve my words that I celebrate,
I gave respect of my middle finger
And stopped being their puppet.

I pray and hope that you
Be aware to stay away from their stunts,
They may drag you down,
make you feel worst,
But don’t get manipulated.

You no longer need to be cheerful
To the world who doesn’t
give you that respect,
It’s better to stand by yourself always,
Than to get affected.

They tell your things which are of no use,
Just get deeper in your own journey,
And feel the richness of your own taste.

I’m going to write until my last breath,
As I’ve got my people whom I choose.
You can stand on the other side of the road, and judge, as you can never fit in my shoes.

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Sumit Yadav(25), popularly known as SumitOfficial, is a blogger from Mumbai who has been writing since 5 years, and has posted 600+ Blog Posts till now. He is an MBA and works in an Educational Industry in Mumbai as a Senior Career Consultant. His spare-time activities include creative things like -- Acting, Photographing, mimicking, singing. He has worked with Radios, appeared on National TV, interviewed authors, appeared on newspapers for multiple activities, and has written reviews for magazines. Also, he's been consistently writing offline in his journals for more than 875+ days now. He believes in Continuous Progression, and Exponential Growth. 

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14 thoughts on ““What Am I In The Eyes Of Most People–a Nonentity, An Eccentric?” | Prompt #15”

  1. Sooner or later in life we have to accept the fact that not everybody is going to love us… neither all of them can understand our journey..and that’s totally fine… As long as we know and love what we are doing, that’s it.
    I am glad that you didn’t let their criticism stop you. You are one of my favourites here. 👍😊

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  2. First I’ll praise your choice of thumbnail, it’s attractive and it already speaks on behalf of poem.

    The story isn’t new to me, I have heard it from you, it’s good to see how you added that AVP segment in that.

    A lot of people praise you, a lot of them criticise you, a lot of them read but not comment, a few shy away when you write erotica, but there’s one thing common in all of them, they all “read” even if they backbite you, post that.

    Concluding stanza becomes my favorite tonight.
    But if we talk about the entire poem as a whole, I really liked the message conveyed.

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  3. Accepting ourselves is more important than being accepted by others. I don’t know you much but your writing oozes confidence.

    People around come around in our success days and leaves in other phase. The person who stays is us so the confidence and acceptance should be within us. What we do is our case, we’ll be wrong somebody any day!

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    1. I don’t know why but, at times, we forget to love ourselves. Don’t we?

      My words have always been independent, never feared by anyone’s opinion. It helped me to vent even those things I was not sure of feeling. That’s how words are meant to be.

      They reveal what’s hidden inside. Always.

      How profoundly you’ve stated that it’s you who walks on the path. Alone.

      So what and how you feel within matters the most. And I believe, working on one skill to build yourself everyday should be our target.

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  4. I have seen you since 2016, Sumit and I am extremely proud of the fact that you didn’t just create your lane but also broke the taboo, you made erotica exactly as it should be ” an art” .
    Keep doing what you do, we love and your art
    ❤❤❤❤

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    1. You’ve been there ever since I was nothing (I still am nothing, hahah!)

      But jokes apart, thank you for always taking time to come and read my work. Your inspiring words make me write and share.

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  5. One of the things that most inspires me is your journey. You have always walked bravely through all the thorny paths huh. 😀 You did what you were passionate about and did not get discouraged by what others said. That’s something I am still working on. 😟 This poem is so inspiring.

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    1. I could walk through this journey because even if my eyes we’re closed on the path, I had, and gratefully, still have those people around me who guided me to keep moving.

      Could I ever ask for more? Could I ever think about the haters who tried to mislead me?

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